4CHAN IS DOWN.

I . . .

I . . .

I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE'S JUST CUT MY OXYGEN SUPPLY.

Yes, this is an utterly important matter deserving a full LJ post. Yes, I have the mental maturity of a five years old. Why do you ask? ♥

ETA: MY PR0N SUPPLIER 4CHAN IS BAAAAACKKKKK!!!! ♥♥♥♥

ALL IS WELL AND GOOD AGAIN WITH THE WORLD!

Yes, still a 5 years old, why? 8D

Coming out of hiatus at last!!

. . . while being in the middle of finals. Gee, my subconcious sure has a weird idea about what constitutes a stressful time.

Still, all things considered, I'm feeling much better right now. In fact, I'm pretty sure I'm currently not just content, but happy. The gloomy cobwebs that have cluttered my mind for weeks is now mostly gone. After all too long, I can finally bloody think again! Wheee!

If there's one thing I seriously fucking hate about being depressed, it's how dumb it makes you. It's not the most horrible thing in world, sure, but there's also nothing quite like watching your own mind slowly change into a slugglish alien thing on you, and not being able to do anything to stop it.

And, goodness, what timing! Had I stayed depressed, I would've bombed my finals for sure.

You know . . . just like before, I'm not entirely sure what got me out this time, though I have some vague ideas about what had caused it in the first place. My life would be infinitely easier if I could know these things with mathematical certainly, but then again, psychology is not hard science for a reason.

On a side note, an acquaintance mentioned an interesting thing about me recently.

Now, not too long ago I made some conscious changes in . . . well, corny as it may sound, the way I live my life. (Probably close to no effect whatsoever online, though. Still here for the pr0n and LULZ. 8DDD) I'd like to think it's making my life overall healthier and happier. That particular comment I got is actually a good indication that those changes are actually working. This should be a good thing, right?

It irked me.

It's both amusing and annoying to realize that I'd internalized people's old view of me enough for me to actually be somewhat dissappointed when that view changed, even when I'm the one who caused the change in the first place.

Ah, my ideal loony old coot's zen, you are still so far awaaaay . . .

I wish religions don't exist.

But then humanity would probably have invented various other ways to morally persecute each other anyway.

Is 'agreeing to disagree' really such a hard concept to understand?

. . .

Still on hiatus, btw. *sigh*

There.

Are.

No.

Words.

*BAWL*

. . . I officially ran out of tissue.

I'll probably be more coherent after episode 24. Or not. Whatever. *SNIFFS*

1) Heroic death is heroic, but you'll still be fucking dead. D.E.A.D. DEAD. I swear if anyone I care about IRL ever try to die for me when there's still any other option possible, then I will seriously fucking hate them. And if afterlife exists, then I'll chase them down to bitch-slap them half dead, and then kill them again myself.

In other news, my beloved character is finally dead. Come Monday, I'll be wearing all black to school. *SOB*

2) Keith Anyan is fucking creepy, also a fucking retard, and is badly in need of some serious bitch-slapping by a gigantic Clue Hammer. Preferably by Matsuka.

3) Matsuka is Matrix!Neo. There isn't enough LOLZ in the world. (But hey, at least we now know that he's good for something other than making coffee. XD)

4) The new OP sequence is . . . akblrfjnklop3uj5wweEEEEEEE!!1! . . . rub salt in the wound, why dontcha?! You just killed a character I love, and now you give me an OP that guarantees the death will haunt me in each and every fucking future episode. How nice of you.

5) Jomy . . . Jomy is beautiful. I'm fucking in love with his soul. Blue, you really couldn't have picked a better heir.

You know, I wonder.

It's a no brainer why the Mu shouldn't be hunted down like they currently are. Which, after all the pretty words, basically boils down to: they're alive, they're sentient, and they're human too, even if they hold powers that'll make normal human look like powerless ants in comparison. So. Living being = right to live.

The series did give its try at playing the devil's advocate by throwing us the Nazca children, but I say fuck that. Lets ask the million dollar question!

The enemy. The ebil EBIL Superior Domination system. That one packs a lot of power. Makes human and the Mu look like ants in comparison, so long as the sheeps stay where they are. So, what if the system itself gains sentience? What if it evolves into a life form itself? It's certainly inconvenient, what's with it's honest sincere desire to blow the entire Mu race up into oblivion, but still . . . what about its right to live?

But this is maybe a bit like asking about a HIV virus' right to live, or the right of smallpox not to be eradicated into extinction. To which the average answer would probably be something along the line of "WTF?! Kill it with FIRE, you IDIOT!!"

It kills us in mass numbers, and we can't pet it. Thus, it needs killing. No matter how we try to be considerate, or 'green', or something, humanity always comes first in the end. Hell, I might be one of those shouting for burnination too. Probably hardwired into us, survival instict and all that junk.

. . . why the hell am I thinking about all this hypothetical crap when I have a stack of assignments due all too soon? AUGH. Damn you, Terra e!

Aww, shit. Dead man heroism.

I don't like dead man heroism. It makes me itch in unscratchable places. It makes me feel like snapping irritably that, hey, you'll be dead soon anyway, so quit it with the hero wannabe play and just lie back down on your fluffly bed, m'kay? On the other hand, playing hero is quite often just about synonymous with suicide, and who are more expendable for that than walking dead men? If it was me pulling the shots, I'd sent them too.

It still makes me itch.

And it itches even worse when I happen to like the walking dead man. Dammit.

Okay.

First this series made me fall in love with the wrongest character ever. Then it forced me to develop some serious fondness for another character several episodes down, only to cold-bloodedly murder the poor thing shortly after. Now it's dropping hints that that character I originally fell in love with will wake up just in time to get fucking killed?

. . . there's not enough WRYYYYY in the world. Nowhere near enough, goddammit. *CRIES*

I'm seriously torn between wanting the anime to run forever and for it to end, like, NOW. I'm starting to run out of tissue paper. ;_;

ETA: This series is seriously fucking GOOD. At the risk of sounding like a decrepit old dinosaur, they really don't make this kind of EPIC DRAMA anymore these days.

. . . every bit as good as the rumour, AND THEN SOME.

I may be biased though, because Terra E is, so far anyway, one gigantic balloon of SCI-FI DRAMA. And I'm kind of head-over-heels madly in love with that genre.

Generally speaking, the feel of this series really reminds me of, say, the original gundam. You know, old-school drama, from a time when The Powers That Be didn't yet realize that fandom goes ga-ga over shipping and angst. I love fandom like mad, but catering to our every whims and desires is most absolutely NOT always a good idea. In a lot of ways though, it's softer than gundam. Less harsh action, more touchy-feely emotions and character depth stuff. I can't say I don't miss the pretty multicolor explosions --that would be like saying I hate potato chips; a filthy filthy lie-- but Terra E somehow just manages to compensate for that, and hooks me in. Maybe it's the story. Maybe it's the drama. Maybe it's the cheesy old-school look in everything which successfully kept me grinning on and off the entire six episodes.

Or maybe it's the nuclear chemistry between Blue and Jomy. 8DDD

Lemme just say that, this is a pretty accurate picture of how I first came to know about the series, and from a seasoned slash shipper's point of view, those aren't exactly false advertizing. *giggles*

Just.

JUST.

MUST I ALWAYS ALWAYS FALL IN LOVE WITH A DYING CHARACTER??!!?!?!?!

How the in the name of all that's holy, and some that aren't, did I still manage to lose my fangirl heart to that character, even when I jumped in fucking knewing he'd meet his maker sooner rather than later?!! Took one, fucking ONE, look at him in the first ep, and that's it. I was a goner. Been crying my heart out over my eventual heartbreak ever since, and he isn't even dead yet.

I have the most rotten luck in fandom crushes EVER. TT____TT

*SNIFFS*

. . . anyway. 15 minutes left 'til ep 7 finishes downloading. O gods, my DOOM is approaching ever closer. This is like LaDIES night all over again! NOOOOOOO!!! DDDDD':>

. . .

. . .

CAN I HAS NEXT CHAPPIE NAO PLZ??!

DIE, CLIFFHANGER, DIE DIE DIEDIEDIEDIE.